TITLE:
"Crossroads"
AUTHOR:
Emmyjean (emmyjeanb@yahoo.com)
CLASSIFICATION:
J/L
RATING:
PG-13
SUMMARY:
The long journey of James Potter and Lily Evans over the course of their last
year at Hogwarts.
DISCLAIMER:
Without JK Rowling, none of this would exist. Thanks to her for letting me play
with her creation.
AUTHOR’S
NOTES: This fic has been REVISED AS OF JULY, 2003 to fit with Order of the
Phoenix canon. Please read details from
author HERE. By the way…yes, I KNOW I left the
character of Arabella Figg as she was in the first version! Trust me, I wouldn’t overlook such a
thing. All shall be explained later. ;)
Prologue
June, Fifth Year
"Prongs, where did you put that
deck of exploding snap cards?" Sirius Black called over the noise of
talking and laughing in the Gryffindor common room. It was the end of the term, and the Gryffindor prefects had been
given permission by Professor McGonagall to throw a party in celebration. There
was an endless amount of food and butterbeer, much game-playing, and even a few
slight mishaps...but the evening was still young.
"I don’t know, I didn’t have
them," James Potter called from his place on a couch, his arm resting
casually across the shoulders of the girl he was seeing at the moment,
"Ask Wormtail!"
Peter Pettigrew turned at the sound
of his nickname and raised his eyebrows. Short and stocky, he didn’t look the
part of a Marauder – James, Sirius, and Remus Lupin were all tall and lean.
"Is someone calling me?"
"Yeah," Sirius grumbled,
"What did you do with those cards?"
Peter blinked, then pulled the deck
out of the pocket of his trousers. Holding it out to Sirius, he asked,
"Are you going to have a game?"
"In a manner of speaking,"
Sirius replied cryptically, earning a suspicious look from Remus. He walked
over to where James was sitting and asked, "Care for a game?"
James eyed the deck Sirius was
waving enticingly in front of his face, then smiled evilly and jumped up, the
girl next to him temporarily forgotten at the prospect of causing some sort of
mischief. They cleared a space at the
table nearest the window, and Sirius dealt. Remus and Peter walked over to
watch, along with some other interested students. After both players had a full
hand, Remus asked wryly, "What could possibly make you two start a game of
cards in the middle of a party?"
James grinned up at his friend and
replied, "Think of the possibilities."
Sirius smiled slightly at this and
asked, "Hey James?"
"Hmm?"
"How do you reckon could we
make this game more entertaining for the group of onlookers we seem to have
attracted?"
James glanced around and replied,
"Huh...I don’t know. It would have to be something spectacular, to keep
this lot’s attention."
The two friends locked eyes and made
their decision, grinning as they did.
"Why do I think this is going
to end badly?" Remus mumbled mildly.
"Nonsense, Moony," James reassured, removing his wand
from his pocket, "We’re only going to enhance the game a bit."
“Besides,” Sirius said, an ironic
smile twisting his handsome face, “What are you going to do? Report us?”
At this, Lily Evans finally decided
to speak up. She too was a prefect, and she felt it was her duty to say
something in the way of a warning...even if the fact was that she really didn’t
want to get involved. How was she
supposed to live up to the badge if she shied away from the things that were
hard? After all...she’d dealt with him
and his friends before. "Look...I
don’t think you should do this. We aren’t allowed to use magic at all...it was
one of the conditions to having this party."
James and Sirius exchanged a glance,
and James replied, "Oh, come on, Evans. No one has to know."
She persisted, "I don’t think
you should. It could go wrong.”
James rolled his eyes slightly to
himself and replied, "Relax, would you? I know what I’m doing."
Turning, he eyed her for a moment
before a slow smile lifted the corners of his mouth. “Besides...it’s obvious that the things I’ve been doing so far to
impress you haven’t been working.”
She
narrowed her eyes at him and shook her head, embarrased as always when he did
this in front of people. It was clear
they were completely different people and had nothing in common, and everyone
knew that a relationship of any kind between them was a ridiculous notion...but
did he have to use this knowledge to consistently make fun of her? She knew he wasn’t serious, and that it was
probably just his way of joking with her...but she couldn’t help feeling
sometimes that there was a slight bit of maliciousness behind it as well. He knew full well that it embarrassed
her...and he knew that everytime he did it, he’d get a laugh. It boosted his ego, she thought as her brows
came together in a frown. Shooting her
a wink, he smiled wider and proceeded to ignore Lily’s protests, putting some
kind of enchantment on the deck in front of him. Then, he grinned roguishly and
put his wand away, seating himself once more.
"What did you do?"
Pettigrew asked excitedly.
James began to shuffle and replied,
"Like I said...I just enhanced the deck, that’s all."
Sirius and James began to play, and
the rest of the Gryffindors were soon roaring with laughter as it became
apparent what this enhancement entailed. The cards, when they did explode, were
ten times louder and released double the smoke and soot. James and Sirius were
soon covered in smudges and the place smelled like someone was burning rubber.
Lily, still worried about a disaster, looked on with her arms crossed, waiting
for the slightest indication that this game could turn dangerous so that she
could put a stop to it. Frankly, she wished
Remus Lupin would just do it...after all, he too was a prefect, and they were his
friends. As she glanced at him,
however, she noticed that although he didn’t seem to be abandoning himself so
easily to the hilarity of the moment, he also didn’t seem too concerned. Sighing again, she decided to just wait it
out...as it was, she just couldn’t bear to ruin everyone’s fun if she didn’t
have to...after all, nothing bad had happened yet. As thought hearing her thoughts, James looked up and saw
her. Shaking his head, he assured,
"Evans, relax. Nothing’s going
to happen."
No sooner had the words left his
mouth, however, than a card shot out of Sirius’ hand. It was supposed to have
exploded, but instead was behaving like some sort of wayward firecracker. Before
anyone could register what had happened, the card flew straight at the long,
red drapes hanging in the window and ignited them.
James and Sirius jumped up, as did
many other students, amidst screams and yells. Lily, however, was the one who
got there first. She reached up and ripped the curtains from their rods. As
they came tumbling down around her, still blazing, she felt a searing pain in
her right arm. Not having time to think about it, she and a few other students
who had come to her aid worked to put the fire out before it spread. At last,
the fire itself was extinguished, although the room was even more full of smoke
than it was before. Lily heard someone open a window, and then someone started
to laugh.
It was Sirius Black. Soon, he was
roaring with laughter at the entire spectacle, and James joined him
wholeheartedly. A few others began to titter, and it wasn’t long before the
entire student population of Gryffindor tower was in hysterics. Lily wasn’t
concerned about this right now, however...she was attempting to examine her
throbbing arm through the haze of smoke in front of her.
"What’s the matter, Lily?"
came a voice from beside her. It was her friend, Helen Knowles.
"I’m not sure...I think it’s
hurt," she replied, motioning at her forearm.
"We need to get to the hospital
wing, then," Arabella Figg, her other best friend, said while casting a
glare in the direction of James and Sirius, "That was completely
irresponsible."
Lily shushed her, not wanting to
cause a scene, and the three of them slipped unnoticed out the portrait hole
and up through the corridors of Hogwarts until they reached the hospital wing.
The school nurse, Madam Pomfrey, came bustling over to see what was the matter.
She tutted when she saw Lily’s burn, and scooted her over to sit on a bed. Lily
smiled slightly...it seemed Madam Pomfrey had been there forever.
"Miss Evans, this is nothing
other than a nasty burn, but how in the world did you get it?"
Lily cast a glance at Arabella, who
widened her eyes a bit in encouragement. She was of no help...she would have
relished getting the Marauders in trouble for this. However, it was Lily who
would have to live with it if she did.
Why hadn’t she just put a stop to it when she had the chance?
"Umm...well, we were having a party in the common room, and there was a
small...er, mishap," she replied vaguely.
The old nurse would not be put off,
however.
"A mishap? In the form of a
fire, you mean?" she asked knowingly, a frown marring her brow as she
applied cool paste to the burn. It truly did look like a horrible wound.
Lily hesitated, then decided it
would be no good trying to lie about it. She nodded, and Madam Pomfrey stood
up, clasping her hands tightly in front of her.
"Miss Evans, I’m sure I don’t
have to stress to you the importance of my reporting this incident to the head
of your house. Being a prefect, you must know that I am obligated to..."
"Oh, please," Lily cut her
off, desperately. She couldn’t bear to think about what those boys would do if
they thought she told on them. She didn’t get along very well with James Potter
as it was. "You don’t have to do
that. It was only an accident..."
"An accident undoubtedly caused
by magic, and I happen to know for a fact that magic was forbidden at this
particular gathering."
Lily shook her head firmly, knowing
even now that it was futile but unable to simply give up, "Really, I’m
fine. I don’t wish to report it...please, I’ll take care of it myself..."
"I’m afraid that is
impossible," Madam Pomfrey said with a finality that made Lily’s heart
sink, "You might very well have been hurt much worse, not to mention other
students who were put in danger. I won’t ask you to give me names, Miss
Evans...but I must report it."
Lily let out her breath in one
hopeless sigh, and her shoulders sank. After promising Madam Pomfrey that she’d
keep her bandage on overnight, she and her friends walked out of the infirmary.
Helen didn’t say much, but Arabella spoke up.
"Lily, it’s the only right
thing to do, and you know it. They were way out of line."
"That’s easy for you to say,
Bella," Lily replied, "You’re not going to have to deal with
the consequences."
"Consequences?"
Lily sighed again in frustration.
"It’s not as if I get along very well with James Potter and his friends now."
Arabella snorted, and they argued
back and forth on it for a few moments without reaching any sort of agreement.
Eventually, they reached the tower, and to Lily’s utter dismay were met by
Professor McGonagall climbing out of the portrait hole.
"Miss Evans, may I have a word
with you please?"
Arabella and Helen looked
sympathetically at Lily before heading inside. Lily stood before the professor,
trying to hide her bandage with the sleeve of her robes. McGonagall noticed and
said sharply,
"No need to hide it from me,
Miss Evans. I know all about it from Madam Pomfrey."
Lily looked at the floor and
grimaced. News traveled quickly around this school.
"Miss Evans," McGonagall
continued, "I have no one to punish in this instance, although a grave
offense has been committed. You have not given us any names, and I must say I
disapprove...you are not acting the part of a prefect."
Lily didn’t know how to respond to
this, so she kept silent and waited for her to continue. After a moment, she
did.
"If you are willing to let the
ones responsible go unpunished, that is your decision...but I hope that in the
future, you will try and put your duties first. That is...if you want to be considered for the position of Head Girl
one day."
As McGonagall walked briskly away,
Lily closed her eyes and thought that perhaps she might kill herself when she
got up to her dorm. Frankly, she didn’t know why she was being spoken to so
strictly...it wasn’t as if she had caused the fire. She was a victim of
circumstance in this case, and no one seemed to understand that. She stepped
slowly forward and gave the Fat Lady the password, but what she saw when the
portrait swung open made her reconsider her options – perhaps it would be
better if she just killed herself right now.
James Potter sat there, scowling at
her as she came through the opening. She shivered quite involuntarily...she had
never quite gotten along with him as well as everyone else, but she had never
seen his eyes so cold before.
Yet at the same time, they burned with
rage.
"What good did you expect it to
do, may I ask?" he spat as she started to walk toward the stairs. She
stopped, sensing that he wanted a fight...and he was going to get one. She
didn’t respond, trying desperately to come up with something to say in her
defense. After all, the situation did look pretty incriminating. He let out a
derisive laugh behind her and went on,
"I knew you were stuck-up and
swotty, Evans...everyone did. I
could’ve overlooked those as minor character flaws. It was just somehow
surprising that you would be a rat as well."
Lily spun around, feeling her neck
burn as anger swept through her. How dare he say these things to her when he
didn’t even know what had happened? In any case...he was the one who caused the
mess in the first place. He and his stupid, careless friends.
"If I recall correctly,"
she shot back, "YOU were the one who started this whole thing! If you
hadn’t been so predictably arrogant..."
"You can afford to be bloody
arrogant sometimes if you know how to handle a situation!" he yelled,
surprising her, "But you wouldn’t know anything about that, would you?
You’re the most ineffective prefect I’ve ever seen...maybe that’s why you feel
you need to run and fetch a professor every time something happens."
"I’m ineffective?" she
sputtered, unable to believe her ears, "You caused a fire in the common
room, Potter! That’s not exactly what I would call ‘handling a
situation’!"
"I’m not a
prefect...besides, it was nothing and you know it. It got put out in two
seconds, if that," he said irritably.
She
struggled to think of something to say...she wasn’t good with words in the same
way he was. She wasn’t as quick of a thinker, and it was a disadvantage in this
situation. "What are you so worked up about, anyway? You didn’t get in
trouble, did you?"
He raised
an eyebrow at her and said, "McGonagall’s not happy with the prefects
right now, as you were supposed to be monitoring the use of magic. She’ll
probably never let us have another bloody party in here again, thanks to
you...not to mention the fact that Remus’ll probably get in some kind of
trouble."
"Well, maybe he should,
then! You weren’t supposed to be using
magic at all! Someone could’ve gotten hurt! Can’t you see that?" she
replied in her most firm tone, unconsciously rubbing at her hidden wound as she
did.
He snorted and replied, "Come
on...don’t be daft."
She was about to retort when he held
up a hand. "I really don’t feel like talking to you anymore, Evans. You
just go on up to bed, and dream about what it would be like if you actually had
some influence around here. Go on."
As she stood there, dumbstruck by
his blunt insults the likes of which she’d never heard from him before, he
considered her for a moment longer and then let out a hollow little laugh. Shaking his head and messing his hair, he
commented, “You know what I just figured out?
You were not worth the effort.”
She felt her eyes begin to burn in
frustration as she turned to huff away, but before she went even halfway up the
stairs she turned back and said quietly, "You know, Potter...you needn’t
be so smug. This is exactly what lost
you that prefect’s badge, but I guess we should all be thanking you for that,
shouldn’t we? Otherwise we might have
been stuck with you actually having power instead of just thinking you
do because you happen to be popular.
You’re an egotistical, insolent, overconfident git...nothing more."
She turned and hurried the rest of
the way up to the dorms, where her friends were no doubt waiting to hear what
had happened...and for once, she noted that James Potter was left speechless.
From that night on, James Potter and
Lily Evans held each other in the utmost contempt and loathing. They only spoke
to each other when it was absolutely necessary, and even then conversation was
short and often curt. This made it all the more abominable for them both – and
alarming for the Hogwarts students and faculty – when, in a decision that
somewhat shocked the school, James Potter was made prefect in their sixth
year...
...and
then he and Lily were made Head Boy and Girl in their seventh year.
To Be Continued in Chapter One
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